Little things that count...

2012-01-22T03:50:00.000-08:00

Every fallen tear makes me a stronger person. Every heartbreak makes us more determined.

We're leaving now, retreating; but it doesn't mean we're admitting our lost.

Cause wait for it, I will be back; stronger and tougher. Wait for it. 10 years from now, we'll be back to take back what we've lost; to fight back. I will not bow before you EVER again. Neither will her.

I'll let you taste a bit of whatever you've done to her. Back the hell off.
I am her front line, her armor, her power, her backbone. She's not alone anymore.

Back. Off.

you'll never know...

2012-01-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

Kelsey, I love you so much buddy. I'm so sorry I kept quiet all the time when we were talking about.. well, life, I just didn't know how to put those thoughts into words. I know you will do well. We have faith in you. In return, you should have faith in yourself, and in life. Just like what Vian said, just go with the flow. Fate will bring you and guide you through this part of your life. :) and hopefully we will be included and take part in this part of your life.

Yi yuan, I miss you already! When I started dialing your number, memories just flashed pass... Remember those times when we stressed about small unnecessary things for st johns, and that... pretty awkward outing to sunway when there was only the two of us? You're truly an awesome and truthful friend... You're my gor and I know I can always talk to you when I need help. I heart you. :)

I guess you'll never know what is installed for you... Only God knows. All we can do is to be patient, and believe in His plans. I pray that we will remain as friends for a long long time and together, we shall keep up with His plans, learn new things, experience hardships and overcome them together.

I'm excited, yet afraid. But I know you guys will be there, and that sort of takes away my doubts and uncertainty.

Welcome 2012. Be nice to me. :)
Dear God, please watch over us, and anyone who's feeling a lil nervous and afraid. Bless us and give us strength to embrace life. :)

01/01/2012

2012-01-01T09:40:00.001-08:00

I will rmb that magical moment when we were watching the fireworks. Thankyou for everything. I have so so so much to say, but I just don't have the guts to. Wanted to plan smtg for countdown, but I was doubting too much. I'm so sorry. But do give me some time, and I'll gather my courage to tell u whatever I've been wanting to tell u since july-august.

Thankyou. With all my heart, thankyou. :) I'm so so so glad I met you. So glad it's you. Ahh so much to say, but I want only u to hear n noe what I have to say. So wait for it! :)

I can't believe this is happening to me. 2012, definitely a great great year.

The last 24 hours of 2011.

2011-12-30T08:43:00.001-08:00

12.35 am... I'm s'pose to be sleeping now but I'm just too excited to welcome 2012!

I can sense happiness, fun n excitement heading our way in 2012 already!
2011 was a great great year. Learnt so much, realized so much and gained so much from this year.

Memories in high school shall b kept in a very special place in my mind n will be treasured. :)

In this last 24 hours, I'm gonna try to do all the awesome things I enjoy the most!
Starting off with jogging with the jogging gang tmrw morning! Then I'll head to ou to get some stuff, n eat! I'll eat whatever I want! Screw the fats n carbs. Me don't care! :P hehehehe. Then, (hopefully) I'll get to watch the fireworks n countdown with everyone dear to me. :) ahhh I really miss n love you guys. U know who you are.

OH! and just to remind myself how FANTASTIC 2011 is, I got my GP! they finally approved my application! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh dream come true aft waiting for 5 years! :D

Kkk. I should really sleep now. Long day tmrw.

HAVE FUN! :D

2011-12-19T07:56:00.000-08:00

High school ended, SPM ended. :)
I guess it isn't that scary afterall. Things all fell into place naturally after the last paper.. (which was pretty screwed up. but wtv x) )

Hmmm...
8th - 11th Dec~ Left for Bangkok a day after Chinese paper. :) Since it was just one day after SPM, I was still in my exam mode - all alert and aware, so honestly, i didn't enjoy the first day there.
Flight to Bangkok was one of the scariest flight ever. We experience turbulence and everyone gasped (out loud) when the whole plane literally shook and jerked. After that horror flight, we arrived at the most flattering hotel - Grand Millenium Hotel, Sukhumvit. I must say the structure was pretty impressive. We stayed at the club floor in the executive room, which was as expected, luxurious. Just to clarify one thing, we got the room coz my uncle always went there so it's sort of a privilege they offered. :) sneak peak!

Hotel lobby...

Executive lounge. Free flow of cocktails ;), wine, beer and FOOD. :)

Our room. Shared room with my parents... *havoc*

The highlight of this whole trip would def be the food! FOOD :D
We walked and 'hiked' around the city, searching for the top restaurants that provided authentic thai cuisine. :D Of course, we ate and ate and ate soooo much! If I were to go visit Bangkok again someday, I would screw all the shopping and EAT.
Here are some recommendations:
- ERAWAN TEA HOUSE. It is rated with 4.5 star. Authentic Thai Fried Rice was definitely my fav! Not to forget rice cracker with minced pork dip! My dad esp enjoyed their unique sweet and sour fish. Pricing wasn't too bad. We paid about 2500 baht ( which is approximately RM 250) for about 8 dishes. Thumbs up!
- THAI ON 4. Rated 4.5. Here I absolutely enjoyed the dessert - Sweet sticky rice with mango and santan. However, food here was quite pricey, but all in all, def worth it! :D
*** sorry i'm to lazy and bz to upload the pics. x)

After food >>> shopping!
I must say my aunt, mom and i were quite stressed when looking for my prom dress... Just when we were about to give up on the last night of the trip, I ran (crazily) into Terminal 21 - a new shopping mall just opposite our hotel just when they were closing and found this gorgeous pale beige (SPARKLY :D) 6 tier dress... Yeah the dress and really nice.. but it could've looked better on someone else, someone prettier! :D I still bought it anyways.
We did get souvenirs for everyone! All I hafta do is find a way to pass em the stuff.

That's about it... for Bangkok. :) I would def want to visit Bangkok again. It was an awesome experience for me, however, my mom wouldn't agree with me. * Her arm was almost chopped of by the stupid monorail, almost lost her way back... etc*

So I came back after having a good time in Bangkok and oh, I miss my friends! x) They were mostly on holiday trips... Kempas to Penang, Chin gang to Penang... Oh and not to forget the Genting trip. ;) I'm sure everyone had fun! :D

And so days passed by, and it was prom.
Prom. 16-12-11.
The day we've been waiting for. x)
We girls were honestly very very nervous (esp if we have a date!). Hair, face, dress.... So much to do! We praticed slow dance... tried walking on heels... altered dresses... tried out makeup looks. My goodness. There was one point where I almost gave up!(again xP)
So Jess, Soph, Vian and I met up at 9am and headed to my uncle's salon in KL. I was a lil disappointed with the outcome for mine for it was alright. :) Headed home at 3pm, and that was when that two monkeys came over to my place. I was so calm until Yi Yuan and Sze Wei walked into my room holding their suits and stuff. Oooh butterfly in my stomach!

6.30pm - Reached Sheraton hotel... that was when i wished time would slow down so I could rmb and treasure every moment there. :) Long story cut short, I really had a fantastic time with my friends and my date. :) slow dance... corsages... smiles... :) perfect.
Thanks for making it perfect. Thanks for asking me. Thanks for... everything. I'm sorry for the awkward moments I created... Sorry for being so quiet. But I was honestly nervous and didn't know what to do. If we were given a chance to rewind time to that night again, I would def try harder. 16-12-11, a night I would remember forever. :)
Crazier - Taylor Swift.

17th dec - Sunway outiiiinnngggg! Oh I miss skating. xD Taught someone how to skate. :D I must say he was a fast learner! :) Skated around the ring, smiling all the time. :)
Words can't possibly describe how... happy and contented i was. Really. Plus, it's been months since I last skated!

December - a special month filled with happiness and love andddd Christmas! = food. :P
I'm so excited for Christmas and boiiiii, I'm fully booked from 21-28st Dec! xD

Next up:
Christmas parties.
New year's eve - countdown.

:D

A thousand years. *wink* at Sze wei. :)

# 158

2011-11-07T01:56:00.001-08:00

I'm off to s'pore on wed! No, I'm not there to have fun or play, I'll be there for my GCE O'Levels Chinese Language exam. :/

And no, I'm not ready. Lol! Crap. Ahhhh spm few more days. :'( omg howwwwww. K u should stop freaking out and go study with xin xin and carmen nao! Peace. :)

# 157 - Yesterday was a long long day!

2011-11-04T19:27:00.001-07:00

Walking in pumps for 15 hours is no joke. O.o my feet hurt like crap now. xD

Okay, graduation was alright. A lil touching... We know we made great friends here and everywhere we look reminded us of memories we made throughout these 5 years.

I guess high school changed me alot. I was a chicken... Afraid of everything b4 I came to DU. My English was... Meh. I couldn't speak to a huge crowd. I couldn't leave aik jean even for 1 sec in form 1 coz I was a afraid of... well.. I don't rmb wat exactly I was afraid of. xD but i do rmb she was my support and she still is. ;) <3
Then I made more friends. I mean, awesome friends from different schools, different backgrounds etc. When we were in aft session.. I guess friendship was just going to class together... Eating together... Going crazy together. Now, I think it's much more than that. Idk how to explain this... But I feel more adult now. All these things - graduation, driving lessons, trips with friends... They make me feel that I need to be more independent. x)

Anyways, there were also memories which I sincerely hope to forget permanently. Yep, I was stupid and blind. Lol. Literally. Okay that was mean... But wtv. xP
Yeah he was an asshole who made me feel like shit. But I leant my lesson - never to compromise and get confused between sympathy and love together. Oh yeah, never ever ever do that. Oh and don't dream that you can change a person, coz u can't. xP trust me, i tried. LOL.

All in all, I love high school. I made some friends whom I feel like spending 20 more years with. x)

Ps: DU rocks.

***

“The more we start liking somebody, the more we fear losing them. It’s a human tendency because we can’t afford to lose a person chosen among millions.”

I guess I finally let go of the past and forgiven myself. After spm, I'll start fresh.

' To heal, you must trust. Believe in love again. ' - Eat, pray, love.

Before that, SPM first! xD now I must clear my mind and stay away from this scary invention - my iPhone. Lol. Ciao.

# 156 - Final chapter

2011-11-03T03:51:00.000-07:00

Dang graduation is tomorrow. And after that ( AND SPM), it's goodbye to high school. Goodness, I'll surely miss our spot - the stairs, my awesome friends, 5 Belian, the canteen and I think I'll miss the teachers too! :|

Form 5 is the best year of high school. Somehow, I don't want SPM to end. I actually don't mind letting time freeze DURING SPM, cause that way, I can stay a lil longer in school, and also be together with my friends a while longer. Yes, I am very sensitive in this kind of things and yep, I really really appreciate these times in high school.

Mixed emotions. x)
Can we stay together forever? or at least until the time when we're sick of each other? x)

Actually, graduation isn't the final chapter of high school, prom is.

# 155 - joker!

2011-10-20T07:34:00.000-07:00

I fell down on my BUTT in tuition infront of everyoneeee BAHAHAHAA. It was raining okay. The floor was slippery. Shaddup. x)

teehee. I'm so aweshome! ... EMBARRASSING LA WEIIIII. xD
:D
So now I shall be remembered as the giant girl who fell on her butt with a loud BANG. lol. I think i'm blabbering. Ok, i shall stop nao.

BYE.
Oh, and for the first time in my life, my phone ran outta credit. :)

BYE!

Leehom 王力宏 n Wongfu Pro !!!

2011-10-18T06:22:00.000-07:00

Intoducing...
Leehom 王力宏 n Wongfu Pro share their experience on making Still in Love With You!

Annndddd the official video!

AHHHHH Leehom made the xP face! :))) Ps: He's 30 plus edi... still so hot eh?

<3 Leehom, my all time fav!
Please please have a concert in Malaysia! I've been waitin for your concert for 6 years now. :'(

Leehom Wang (born May 17, 1976) is an American-born singer-songwriter, record producer, actor and film director of Chinese descent based in Taiwan. Formally trained at the Eastman School of Music, Williams College and Berklee College of Music, his musical style is known for fusing Chinese elements (such as Beijing opera, traditional styles of ethnic minorities, Chinese classical orchestra) with hip-hop and R&B. Wang has been active since 1995 and contributed in 25 albums. He is also a four-time winner of Taiwan's Golden Melody Awards, the "Grammys" of Taiwanese music.

In addition to his music, Wang also acted in several films, including Ang Lee's Lust, Caution and Jackie Chan's film Little Big Soldier. He is an environmental activist, and his album Change Me was dedicated to raising eco-awareness among Chinese youth. Wang was one of the first torchbearers for the Beijing 2008 Summer Olympics, and performed in the Olympics' closing ceremony in Beijing. He was listed as one of Goldsea's "The 100 Most Inspiring Asian Americans of All Time".

***

Oh, check this out. ;)

# 154 - dream come true! (at least half of it! HAHA)

2011-10-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

Full scholarship for SASA! <3

Next challenge, straight As for SPM (A+, A or A-, i don't give a damn. ;))
Excellent motivation to strive and study hard.

Oh and by the way,
FB Account - deactivated.
Cell credit - super low. x)

Goodbye to my fun-filled life, helloooooo books and spm. :P

cheers,
grace.

# 153 - 15 more days.

2011-10-14T22:13:00.000-07:00

15 more days for me to think about which college I should go to... I got Principal's Awards! :) but still nothing from SASA... Ahhhh SPM is one month away and I'm still not ready. So many things are running through my mind and I don't know how to settle any of these.

I need a miracle to happen.

Still can't forget about those horrendous memories. They keep on haunting me, reminding what a relationship is like. I don't know if I can ever get involved in any relationship... But viv is right, I musn't let a jerk like him to affect my life and everyone tht i care for... especially... ...

# 152 - i am a brave girl!

2011-10-01T05:06:00.000-07:00

oh yeahhh, i am a donor! :D
heeeheee! Donating blood was something I've always wanted to do, and now that I've finally done it, I feel so complete and proud!

A big big thankyou to all my buddies who were there giving me moral support! Thanks so much, I feel so loved! HAHAHA. If it weren't for you guys, I don't think I'll have the guts to donate.

Anyways, honestly, it wasn't THAT painful. Really. If you're used to those glucose test thingy that you do in the pharmacy or those terrible blood tests and IV drip, blood donation is not really scary.

;D

# 151 - finally! relieved...

2011-09-29T02:54:00.000-07:00

first of all, sorry for the emo scary posts... I was feeling quite down.
and uh... please don't judge. I don't have crazy mood swings kay.. haha. It's just that.. I was really really upset about smtg...
Ps: to those idiots out there, I did not make out with him for Christ's sake. =.= so please, stop spreading rumors and what not...
Anyways, TRIALS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER. :D
Went to Village Park for nasi lemak (nom nom nom <3)...
And went to ChaTime to yamcha! :D It was a whole BIG bunch of us!
ohhhh we talked and talked and ate so much. :)
I swear I could feel all my stress and depression fading away. What a relief.

Ahhhhh. :)

2011-09-27T06:46:00.001-07:00

a stab right through my heart... what have i done to deserve this. I didn't so anything to you. I sacrificed my pride... my name... everything for you. And you sent rumours flying all over.

i don't deserve anything actually.
i don't deserve pain, but i don't deserve happiness either.

***

i'm so confused.
I've done so much... have u ever done anything for me?
have you?

i was taught to give and not to hope for anything in return.
i guess, this time, i have ntg else to give anymore.
i'm empty.
so empty.

so tired.

i'm so depressed; 'cause i care so much!

2011-09-27T05:48:00.000-07:00

I'm so ignorant! So oblivious to EVERYTHING!
I didn't realize it was me.
I'm such a b*tch.. omg what happened to me. God..

I care. I do. But... ARGHHH. I don't know what to do to fix things. I don't understand what you're saying. Who are you talking about? What in the world is happening...? :(

Why can't I do something right for once?
I seriously.. I don't noe wtf is wrong with me.
I just keep on hurting people. So you know what, the best thing for me to do is leave.
Just keep my distance and do absolutely nothing so that I'll not cause anything destruction.
I hate myself.

Stupid stupid stupid me. Not like I've never ruined another person's life in form 2. And tht person was another friend that was so dear to my heart.

Stupid!

You guys have all the rights to hate me.
If you want me to disappear, I will.
I'll try not to appear infront of you and...

...
Now I'm thinking if this, this post is right. Am I even doing anything right?

I've never meant to hurt anyone I swear!
I just didn't realize. Now that I do realize, tell me what to do...

Cause I don't noe whats right and whats wrong.

# 150 - I've tried...

2011-09-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

I've sacrificed something that means so much to me... and I hope it's all worth it. I've tried to create a chance for someone to understand someone better... cause I've heard a little something from both sides. I think I would regret so bad if I don't do something. Even if it means that I'll have to sacrifice someone's trust for me.

It doesn't matter.
My dear,
I really can't bear to see you lose hope in this kind of things. If you lose hope now, what will happen 10, 20 years from now.
To me, this is really very important. You're so damn important to me. That's why even if I have to betray you, and break my promise, I still want you to see the truth. I think my actions did hurt you. But... I'm not regretting. I'm really sorry for betraying you, but I'm not sorry for butting in.
Please continue to have hope. Please hang in there. Please don't hurt your own heart.

Love you always.

You can be mad at me. You can stop telling me things. It's okay. I understand. It's the consequences that I must bear.
:) I totally understand.

But I need you to know that I did this because I really think this will do you good.

***

Prom.
To some of us, prom is just another night where we meet up... usual people... usual conversation.
To me (when I thought I was leaving right after SPM), prom will be the last night for me to see everyone. It doesn't matter if we're in different class, different gang etc, prom is the night where everyone will just get together and have fun.

Just like my blog title, little things that count. Prom will forever be a fragment of memory that will count in your life. Well, at least for me. Last day of school, prom, trips together... I really treasure each and every moment...

I wanted my friends --- ppl whom I really care for, to enjoy and remember prom as "a perfect night". Hmmm...
There are good good friends whom I still care for... It's just that we don't usually hang out together so much. But I still care. :)

What will happen on that night? What will happen after that night? :)
Will we be in the same college?
Will we still hang out together?
No one knows. :) I'm looking forward to it.

***
I went to Taylor's for Principal's Awards interview. I guess I did pretty well. My interviewer was quite impressed about my performance in high school. Results and all... And she decided to give me a chance to excel, to do more than this... I'm not saying that I will definitely get the scholarship. No, not at all. I don't think I'll get. But that doesn't matter.
She said something that made me reconsider my plans.

She said a lot and that encouraged me to work harder and to believe that I can. I've been doubting myself too much. I've been complaining that I'm tired and sick of this and that. Now, I realised I haven't been trying or moving on! I'm just happy with the status quo and just... hibernating?

Haha. I've decided. I'll try my best. Trials, a lil too late. SPM, still one more month to go.

Like what Isaac said: do you wanna rmb ur high school as the suckiest part of ur life?
No, I want to rmb high school as the best part of my life. I want to rmb everyone's smiles, I want to remember me receiving the awards and feeling so absolutely happy about my results. I want to remember leaving high school without any regrets. And of course, I want to remember every second of prom forever. :)

Somehow I'm glad that things are so complicated. Cause after you succeed in solving all these problems, you'll feel extremely good about it, no? :)

It's my life. I don't want to make another wrong choice. I don't want to hide from the memories that scarred me so bad.
From now on, I will at least try, try to do things right. Try to follow my heart.

grace. :)

# 149 - totally girly

2011-09-22T04:19:00.000-07:00

I have Chinese paper tomorrow but meh, I'm gonna blog about this first!

Anyways, I love colours! I mean I do love painting and all, but anything colourful, I LIKE. :D
Few years ago, my cousin sis introduced me to something called m-a-k-e-u-p... Make up!
Since then I've been practicing and learning from videos, makeup artists and friends.
Every birthday I would ask for money to buy more make up products. heh. And I'm not like those spoilt brat who cakes on make up everyday okay... I just love to do make up on someone else.

I think I'm getting better and better in my make up skills and guess what, I just bought a limited edition Bobbi Brown Eye Luxe Collection Palette! It looks like this:

I really really love the colours! They look much more attractive than the picture. Really. Can't wait to use them!

My next target:

SHOOO COLOURFUL! :D

I would like to clarify once more, make up is like another kind of art to me. I don't do make up to impress anyone or anything like that. I appreciate the products and colours I have. And I use my own money to buy em okay! * and yes, I do have my own money... I earn money from art competitions! ;D

I'm going to learn this 'art' after SPM and I shall become a professional part-time make up artist. :)
Ladies! Call me if you need make up! :D

That's all for now, back to writing Chinese essay. Joy.

# 148 - 10 more years to come...

2011-09-16T02:10:00.000-07:00

A big shout out to AIK JEAN! *i hope u still read my blog at time.. :P*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARRRR!
I've been wishing you 10 years already. 10 more years to come babe! ;)
Love you so much and yep, eventho we're not as close as we used to be,
you're still important to me. :D

If you need anyone or anything, do know that:
I. AM. HERE!
hohohoho!

Love you always,
GRACE! :D

***
Oh! According to Eric, Alcohol kills ur brain cells and makes you dumb!
no wonder... :P

I'm no alcoholic... but I really don't mind having some beer, wine, cocktail..
But from now on,
I'm gonna promise myself not to have any alcohol just for fun..
ONLY for important events!
:)

Hooo! Off to 2nd party to celebrate mama n dada's anni!
Wine and beer. 2 glasses. Ntg more. I promise. :)

CIAOZAHHHH!

#147 - say love, love, love, love, love, love and LOVE!

2011-09-14T22:30:00.000-07:00

Happy 26 Anniversary papa Lim and mama Lim!
Stay happy, healthy and strong together!

So glad those terrible days passed.
Everything's back to normal. & pssst,
I saw u n daddy's old pictures... damn sweet! :P
and pssst! I noe u both always try to sneak into my room to
read my blog and stalk my fb.
muahahaha. I NOE EVERYTHING... just like how u noe everything... =.=
So i hope u read this kayy.
sweet love birds. meh.

*ahem*
Anyways... Happy Anniversary!
Having majlis makan malam with them tonight! with white wine! :P

oh, which reminds me, October Fest anyone? :D

#146 - purple, lavender purple!

2011-09-14T06:39:00.000-07:00

THREE new bottles of pure lavender essential oil from my aunt from NZ! <3
Pendant, NZ tee, NZ's famous mud mask for me; cow(LOL) and tea for my mom; jacket and kitkat (LOL!!) for dad. :D

Thanks auntie and uncle! I'm waiting for the pichas!!!!!!! <3

hohoho. rained for hours! :)

#145 - First time...

2011-09-14T00:42:00.000-07:00

It's raining now.. And surprisingly I'm feeling good! :D

Never enjoyed rainy days until today. Everything bad is being washed away. :)
And now everything is cool and refreshing. And happy. :)

hohoho!

# 144 - Control..

2011-09-02T05:23:00.001-07:00

I really want to be in control of my life for once. I don't understand what's happening. So many things happening at once... and I don't feel anything. I mean... I'm not sad, or happy, or disappointed...

I don't know what's going on. It seems like everything bad is happening to my family.

On the other hand, I don't know what you're thinking. I don't know how to make this right. I really don't know. I don't know what to say and what not to say.

I'm giving up. I'm going back into my shell. I don't care anymore.

I hate fairytales.
Everything is nothing.

Idon'tknowwhattocare. Idon'tknowhowtocare.

#143 - It's happening again...

2011-08-28T02:06:00.000-07:00

He was my hero. I can't believe... No, I don't want to believe that he'll be the one to ruin everything...

Just when I thought... Hey, my life is getting better. I'm so happy. Everything is falling into place. And everyday, I just can't stop smilling... , my worst nightmare just came knocking at my door.

Haih. I just wanna stay in my room and ignore the shouting outside my haven.

grace

终极三国 ep29 part 7/7

2011-08-26T00:49:00.000-07:00

***

I was so blind... So stupid... I can't believe I couldn't see the real you. You're just an idiot... I'll never be truly happy with you around. Goddamit... Coz of you, that regret and pain is corroding my soul.

Leave us all alone.

#141 - My new love.. :)

2011-08-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with lavender a few years ago... It's scent, colour... So perfect. Whenever I'm stressed or down, I'll burn a few drops of lavender essence and enjoy my rose tea. :)
And um.. after the whole prom thing, I received some roses and fell in love with roses then! In order to preserve them for a lil longer, I air dried them in my room and now it's right beside me. :D

Now, I read about Neptune Roses from a novel by P.C. Cast.

Neptune (Hybrid Tea)

Rich lavender kissed purple. Can an aquatic divinity enjoy fragrance? If so, Neptune would surely be spirited away after one sniff of his very own new rose. You'll idolize the big blossoms of luscious lavender tinged with just a touch of purple. Certain to garner awards, the abundant blooms arrive on a praise-worthy plant with large glossy green leaves. good vigor and strong vitality. It's no myth, just take a whiff!

-keizernursery

It's like a mix of lavender and rose! Awesome right? However this rose is not available in Malaysia. :(
Teehee.

grace

天快亮了
能不能別離開呢
沉默像首悲傷的歌無聲視線卻模糊了
你要走了也帶走所有快樂
甜蜜的片段散落了你倦了心冷了我哭了
那流星閃過我們許下一個願望
要在一起絕不分離你怎麼放棄了
星空在閃爍像你的眼淚悄悄劃過
當你放開了手離開的時候有沒有一點捨不得我
淚光在閃爍而我的眼淚忍住不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候你卻已經遠遠離開我

離開我了夢醒了還剩什麼
我要的幸福消失了你的心曾經屬於我的
那流星閃過我們許下一個願望
要在一起絕不分離你怎麼放棄了
星空在閃爍像你的眼淚悄悄劃過
當你放開了手離開的時候有沒有一點捨不得我
淚光在閃爍而我的眼淚忍住不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候你卻已經遠遠離開我
有過的快樂我都還記得回憶旋轉著
愛怎麼停了我們都淚了

星空在閃爍你的眼淚悄悄劃過
當你放開了手離開的時候有沒有一點捨不得我
淚光在閃爍而我的眼淚忍住不敢墜落
我還留在黑暗中守候你卻已經遠遠離開

Alone..

2011-08-20T05:13:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, I went to Taylors College today for the Principal Awards Review Day.. I must say it was pretty good. Enjoyed to talk and finally, fully understood about CAL, SAM and CPU. :)

Actually, those aren't what I really want to blog about... You see, when the 3 of us (Huey Ni, Xue Er and I) first stepped into the lecture hall, I were automatically scanning around for a group of DU ppl. However, we couldn't find anyone familiar. Disappointed, we sank into our seats. The 3 of us really started to think... I mean... Somehow, we got so attached and close to our friends in DU that we really really don't wanna get separated from them.I know this may sound immature and stuff... But I'm sure everyone had once felt this way before. Yeah, it's good to meet new ppl, but it doesn't mean that you'll need to abandon ur old friends... Can't we have the best of both worlds?

Sigh... Hopefully I'll manage to let go of this slowly when the time comes. :)

oh, i dont think i'll be going to taylors. I dont like CAL. I prefer edexcel! but more researches are needed to be done. :)

Mum's out again. She's gone to Johor and I'm alone at home with my dad. He's watching TV and I'm here, staring at fb waiting for notifications ( as usual. xP) and blogging(more like crapping ;)).
I've been researching for universities... and... I don't think I can stay alone in a hostel. :(
I'm the only child at home, and that makes me very very lonely. I hate being alone.. And my cousin told me when he was in Canada during the winter, he missed his family and friends alot. by the way, he's a very happy and positive dude. Imagine, if he can;t really cope with the loneliness out there, how can i do it?

uh... This is bugging me.

It gets worse when I'm alone.

But when I'm with them, I literally glow with joy. Thanks for being there for me. Really. Especially VIVI AND SOPHS! thanks for letting me cry on ur shoulders. xD

One last thing before I stop crapping, um, would u stop thanking me? haha. I'm glad and said yes. :) means alot to me also.

kthxbai. :P

this won't be easy, but i'm not backing off.

2011-08-14T06:40:00.000-07:00

R.I.P. dear Uncle Heng Pock. Follow the golden light. We're praying for you. Leave everything behind and leave. We love you.

Hmm... Fate is really playing a fool on my family. My grandmother is going for a major operation tomorrow, please pray for her if you're reading this...

Final goodbye...

2011-08-10T22:59:00.000-07:00

Before I start, I would like to warn you that this post is gonna be... sad. Really really sad. So read at your own risk. Ps: I'm blogging about this so that I will always remember 11th August 2011.

................................

It was 5 am in the morning when my mom's phone suddenly rang and woke everyone up. And when i say everyone, that includes my 3 kakaks, cousin(including the young ones who started crying..), my grannyma, my parents and I... I buried myself under thick covers but could no longer ignore the fact that my house suddenly sounded like some night market. My kakak (Ah Sing) was running all around preparing breakfast and clothes. My parents were... fumbling around my room searching for god-knows-what and just when i thought i can fall asleep peacefully again, Ah Sing just had to bolt into my room and let my mom slam the door shut with a super loud BANG...

That was my last straw. I got out of bed and confronted them.. Guess what, all i saw was a pair of sad sad eyes staring at me. And then my mom said:" Darling... I want you to call Vi Vian and ask her if she can send you to school or not... If she can't, then u just stay at home. Cancel everything you have today. Papa and I are going to the hospital right now. We're rushing. Your uncle..... He's almost gone... He... Nvm.. You just keep quiet and do whatever I told you to."

And then she left. I sat on my bed, numb. I couldn't cry or speak or do anything at all. All I did was... stare. Images flashed across my mind. My heart felt as it maggots were chewing and grinding on it. I sat there... for about 20 minutes until I remembered what my mom said... I called vi vian and texted her (multiple times... sorry vian!).

My mind wasn't functioning. My heart ached so badly that I couldn't feel anything else. My grannyma still doesn't noe abt this.. She too old and fragile to know abt this terrifying news...

I waited for Vian outside my house gate and apologized to them for having to tumpang. we reached school in about 5 minutes.. I walked into school (still feeling very very numb) and left my bag in the prefects room. Then I ran into Sophie's outstretched arms and that was when my heart tore into million pieces. I cried and cried my heart out, ignoring all those stares... I didn't care. Nothing matters anymore. Another uncle has just left us.

I cried so hard that i felt like fainting.. "Attention to all students, please gather at the assembly ground immediately.." I let go of Sophie and hid behind a wall... And Fang came. Of course, I was thankful but I didn't want anyone else to worry for me (even though I failed just now for crying..). Immediately I took control of myself and stopped my tears. I looked up. He was concerned. And I was truly sorry to let him(and vian and soph and mel and xue er) to see me like this. If it wasn't for him, I would have left aseembly and cried my eyeballs out and feel like a complete miserable idiot. And thankgoodness I didn't do all that.

Instead, I put up a brave front and joined assembly.. Here, I would like to thank my friends for being there with me. Thanks guys for tolerating me and making me smile. <3 you never failed to do so. :) Just when I thought: hey, I'm okay... Tears welled up again. I sat alone and stared again. Memories... Voices... :(

And then I saw a note written into my table. (thanks, really made me smile x)) I bottled up my feelings and went to sophs. Endless classes went by with a blur. And here I am, still in my school uniform, blogging about this. My cousins are currently discussing about... things... And my heart hurts. We have some prayers and ritual to do tonight. (skipping bazaar eating spree! sorry buddies. I can't miss this. And I will not.)

...

I feel numb. I can't cry no more.

I'm confused. When you guys are around me, i feel fine. When i'm all alone... :/

Ughh... so weak.

A drop of tear.

2011-08-06T08:24:00.000-07:00

I'm happy. :) It was special.

Akiane Kramarik

2011-08-03T05:17:00.000-07:00

She painted Jesus. :)

A glimpse into heaven.

One of my favorite.

She is gifted, and she is inspired by God. :)

After reading 'Heaven Is For Real', I google searched Akiane Kramarik and that instance, I was truly awed by her artwork. Akiane is a child prodigy, artist and poet.

I read her story and downloaded her artwork. And now I'm starting to regret for eliminating art from my life. :( I gave up on painting about.. 1 year ago and I've never touched my brushes since.
Tonight, I shall continue doing what I enjoy most: painting again. I missed my brushes so much! Love the way the colours mix... :)

Please be patient and I shall post up my new artwork in maybe 2 weeks time.
Cheers.

2011-07-31T23:12:00.000-07:00

The people who are hardest to love, are usually the ones who need them the most. :)

Stole this from Yee Munn's status. <3

2011-07-28T06:33:00.000-07:00

Just A Kiss...

I must be brave. *fearless ;)
I must answer.
I must smile! :)

Well actually before that, I must figure out what I want first. xD

teehee. Just pray that I won't vomit like just now. urgh. stomach... bleh.

;)

2011-07-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

don't noe what I'm feeling... :/ confused. scared.

i fell in love.......................................... with my friends!

2011-07-24T02:50:00.000-07:00

Can't believe how close we all got after Mr. Lim SW's must-not-fail prom operation! =D
<3

Congrats! As a Lim, I am so damn proud of you! =D

And of course not to forget my other bro's successful proposal! :D ACID! congrats!

Form 5... Last year together in DU. I've been thinking about this statement alot nowadays since SPM is just a few months away... which also means time for us to part is also very very near.

***
On Thursday night, I was actually really really panicky for tmrw's plan... I really wanted to see that shy expression and that nod from her! Which ultimately leads to his glorious and relieved smile. I love them both. <3

***
Saturday morning... Last day to attend St John event together as a BOD. Thank God I didn't cry like an idiot but deep down, I know I'll miss working with every single one of you... I silently pray for us to at least, keep in touch when we part ways. We will, won't we? <3

***
Sunday morning... Met Maryanne, Ah Pek Chu, Xue Er, Jia, Ah Too and Ni Ni at Kiara Hill. I guess it was sort of like a farewell jog(??? xD) for Ah Pek Chu... All the best and stay safe!
We spent some crazy time together jogging, running, gossiping ;)... And I know we might not be able to do this after 2011 ever again. =) I <3 you guys...

At the same time, a bunch of my friends were playing hardcore in KDU... Honestly, I couldn't take my mind off this topic for one whole day. I've been wanting to watch them play since MSSD... And thanks to my 2 very very dear friends, once again, Mr. Lim SW and (also another Lim family member) Mr. Lim FL for keeping me updated.

Sunday afternoon... @ Chemistry class... Xue Er cameeee! <3 I've known for since we were.... 5? from ballet class. And we're still best friends till now. I treasure you alot, dear. Even after we go our separate ways, I'll always remember you and I shall crash your house the first hour I come home from overseas(university). At about... 4.05 pm... SW called. Guess what, they made it to the semi finals!!! :DDD
Never felt so happy for someone else before... ever! :) and thank God for taking care of them throughout the game. <3 I guess I'll see you guys tomorrow at KDU? :DD

***
God, thankyou for sending these amazing friends to me. Each and every single one of them is dear and close to my heart. I will pray for them everyday. Thank you for making me realize how attached I am to them. :) I'm glad that I met you guys.

grace

heart broken...

2011-07-23T04:43:00.000-07:00

If you think your boyfriend breaking your heart is the worst thing ever, well, you're so damn wrong.

Try having her accusing you for something you didn't do... To see that disbelief in her eyes, is the most terrifying thing I've experience in my life.

After that, you feel so threatened and terrified, you start to answer back, and then she starts crying. God, please, i beg you to erase that scene because it will haunt me forever. It hurts so badly until nothing else can hurt you no more when you realize that you've broken both your own heart and her heart.

If she, being the closest friend of yours in the world doesn't believe that you can do it, why should you believe in yourself then?

I love her more than anything, no doubt to that. But after what happened, I just don't wanna deal with this shit. At all.

My heart has shattered... so did my world.

I listen to every single of her decisions... to the extend that I am living FOR her. I want to praise Lord freely but I obey her, I didn't continue my journey with Him. It's so terribly difficult to find peace in me.

2011-07-12T09:08:00.000-07:00

My heart was hammering again my chest like a trip hammer...
Just look away. :)

emotions...

2011-07-07T02:38:00.000-07:00

It's really amazing how emotions can take control of everyone... Even a tough guy can collapse when it comes to intense emotions like love...

Amazing that humans are governed by emotions... Something we claim that we can control but fail miserably everyday.

Love... for family, friends.. Such a strong emotion that can drive you crazy at times.
I love my family for sure. I love my friends alot also... I really don't mind sacrificing anything for them. =)

But I'm afraid of loving an individual (male of course x)). :O I don't want to focus on this specific person and cross everyone else out of my life. However, to anyone out there whom had found your special one, treat her/him well and enjoy every single moment together... You don't know how lucky you are to find that very special one. Once you let lose of her/him... You might not be able to find another one...

Yeah I'm young and I don't know what 'love' really is (at least for a guy), I still know it's a very sacred and special thing. :)

grace

You are perfect to me.

2011-07-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

Next to you ♥

It's been soooooo long since I've blogged eh? =)

These few months have kept me so busy. Starting off with CF CAMP! PURFORM!
This camp made me think so much (as usual)... And btw, I'm a Buddhist and yes, I went for CF Camp. & that's perfectly fine alright. Honestly, I don't think I'm a good Buddhist... I don't pray everyday, I don't go vegetarian on special occasions... I'm just wandering around, picking up essence and anything positive from different religions. I'm not even sure if that's legal, but I guess my mom feels better with me like this, rather than converting into a Christian. Right, CF Camp...
Hmm... There are still so many questions in my mind and I could not gather my courage to ask Nigel. =/ (Nigel was our camp speaker. =)) Cause I think my main question could've easily offended anyone in camp... that is, is He real? Can I trust him? According to my mom, I was a gift to my parents from the Goddess of Mercy... Uhh.. I don't know..

Putting that same ol' problem aside...

Kem Integrasi PERDANA! =O
I must say i had fun working with different ppl and adapting to different ways of working. =D
Did you know that, we actually had a FLYING FOX built in our school?! AWESHOME EH.
And of course, not to forget our one and only MARIANNE/MARY-ANNEo.O. I dont know how you would want me to spell you're name, Yi yuan. ;)

Moving on...
June! Busiest month of the year I must say. =)
Sports day was on the 23rd of June. =) Never felt so semangat for green house ever! Best and LAST sports day in DU. I'm glad I spent my last sports day well. =) So damn proud of my friends who'd won medals for whatever events... To all the commanders, you guys were FANTASTIC. =)
especially YEE VONNE and IZAAZ! <3

And just few days ago, we had 1 Murid, 1 Sukan larian. We had to wake up at early in the morning to meet in school by 6.30am. Despite the fact that I was already so darn tired( went to this super last minute St John duty with Dani and Nit *glowsticks!*), I didn't regret A SINGLE BIT for going to school.
The run was fun and NOT tiring at all! and again, sorry Yi Yuan for slowing you down. The good thing is, I think we were the top.... 30s to reach school? xD Didn't put any effort to be the top 20s. =) oh well, we had fun staring at the sky, posing for the cameras etc.

Oh and BASKETBALL MATCH! Priceless.
After 5 years of repelling basketball, I decided to play for green house this year! =) I hafta admit that I almost chickened out but thanks to Fang Liang, I didnt. =)
Initially, I thought this match would not be so intense but the minute I reached the court, I realized that the houses were taking this seriously... I missed the first game cause I was late. heh sorreh. I manage to play in the third game and I realized how badly I missed basketball ( eventho I'm SERIOUSLY bad at it)...
Glad that I played and I won't regret for not playing in my final year in SMKDU. =)
Ooh ooh I'm quite sure alot of you know about my obsession with abs right. xP I TELL YOU, GUYS WHO PLAYS BASKETBALL WITH STYLE( with/without abs) ARE EXTREMELY HOT. xD haha. Damn ass cool. =P

ahem.

Ahhh I still can't believe we're gonna all leave DU next year. I'm so proud to be a DU-rian and I'm extremely glad that i chose to come to DU and not other schools.

DU rocks!

I hope I can freeze time and stay here forever.

***
I believed that emotions can be controlled and I've been telling myself not to let my emotions govern me. I guess I'm starting fail. =(
I don't wanna fall into that hole again.
But... you're too nice. And I don't know what to do. I don't wanna offend anyone coz I love every single one of you in a special way. You're all too special to me.

Friends... They're suppose to be there when you need them right? What if the ppl whom you think are you're friends couldn't even bother to check on you and ask what's wrong... are they still you're friends? And miraculously, those whom you thought had left you/aren't usually the ppl you hang out with, somehow cared and actually bothered to ask and help you...
I can't believe I didn't notice them b4 this. I hope I have enough time to spend with them before we go our separate ways...College.

Signing off,
Grace.

So not ready for July test and SPM. =)

HAPPY CNY!

2011-02-01T06:34:00.001-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!.. hmm it's 2.13 pm now.. And I'm at home, listening *more like drooling* ahem i mean... admiring SNSD's vocals... AND OF COURSE, collecting angpao and counting $$$. xD

First of all, I'm at home cause my hometown is here. As in like... here, PJ. x) Actually I don't mind staying here... it's kinda fun with lil cousins running around in wet and smelly diapers, and parents chit chatting with uncles and aunties AND grandma giving out tons of angpaos...

Why I like CNY? Firstly, there's NO school! =D which means I am temporarily free from stress and work. :)

heh. I spent my past Friday, Saturday and Sunday shopping, and listening to SNSD over and over again. And conclusion: shopping was a success!
I bought 2 pais of 6-inch heels, 5 dresses and one top AND i did manicure, again. I know. =| BUT BUT BUT, I did not overshoot. I spent only about... 700 for all these.

Heh. I mentioned SNSD about 2 times here didn't I?... THEY ARE GOOD. like really good singers! If you think otherwise, please, please listen to this.

=D

okay i'm bored. my posts are all over the place... no links... no relations... but whatever! * proves that my thoughts are as messy too!*

signing off,
grace.

STATE CAMP.

2010-12-14T06:33:00.000-08:00

See you all after 19-12-10!

xoxoxo,
grace

Back

2010-11-21T18:47:00.001-08:00

I'm homeee! Ahhh... The familiar smell of home.. haha.
The weather's a bit hot tho... yikes!

13 G pics coming right up!

Why am I always so random?

2010-11-10T22:26:00.001-08:00

*smiles*

what to expect..

2010-11-09T06:02:00.000-08:00

Exams are finally over! Well, actually exams ended last week. Heh. Anyway, results are pretty... shitty I would say. Really really disappointed. I thought I studied enough and prayed that my hard work will pay off but... hahas. What to do. Will work harder next time! Don't wanna emo and ruin my soon-to-come holidays, yeah?

Ms Lee actually gave us a short...lecture(?) / talk today... She reminded everyone to study in the holidays cause if we don't brush up our chemistry we would " have a hard hard time in form 5". She said:" Mid term, my Form 5 students forgot their form 4 work, plus they're struggling with their form 5 syllabus"...
* to be honest, I am danggggg scared. =/*

We live in fear.

Everyday.

Random. I know. :D

Hmm... I feel quite... stressed now actually... I have quite alot of things in mind you see... State camp, results, Shanghai, camera... hehehe spot the word in bold? YEAPH saya akan pergi ke Shanghai! =) I heard it's a beautiful place. Great view and good food. Really looking forward to it! B'sides, I'm also visiting ShuZhou, Guangzhou, Wu Xi, Nanjing etc... And Hangzhou is really cold! weeeee! Spent alot of $$ on winter clothing though. =/

I'm using all that I saved ( from monthly pocket money, savings from outings... i hardly buy stuff when i go out with ma buddies nowadays... ;) ) to buy awesome accessories and clothes from Shanghai! hmmm... which reminds me! I have ALOT ALOT ALOT of photos to upload! Want to share 'em with you guys. With exams and st johns, I hardly have any time to even touch my dear camera. I bet my camera felt really betrayed and lonely. *sorry!*

OH! I really really like SNSD! hahaha. I bought their limited edition 1st Asia Tour concert DVD. It's friggin RM 180+! worth it though. Cause my cousin and even my mom like their songs! My ONE YEAR & 11 MONTH cousin dances to gee and oh!. Awesome right? I'll post the video of her dancing real soon.

:)

quote of the day: Have a little faith.
;) @ soph.

A little word of encouragement actually made my day. really.

signing off,
grace.

note to mom: I fell really sorry. I didn't achieve my expectations for myself this year. Didn't get good results. Sorry mom... I let you down. I really really want to make you happy... I tried. And I'll work harder! For you and for my own sake! I love you mom.

2010-10-15T08:14:00.000-07:00

A simple yet meaningful dinner with my dear parents was all I need to release my stress.
<3

wish upon a star...

2010-10-12T22:36:00.000-07:00

At the sight of...it. A drop of tear.

It's depressing that a heart can shatter just like that & no one else will know how bad it is or how bad it hurts.
I chose not to voice it out, but it doesn't mean that I'm okay.

So many things were left unsaid... because they weren't suppose to exist in the first place.
I thought that it will fade eventually... but it didn't.
The fear of losing... haunts me every time I close my eyes and think...

It's a waste of time dwelling on these kind of feelings.
Just fade already.
& leave me alone?

Jealousy corrodes my heart.
If only I was smart enough to avoid...

star star star

snsd

2010-09-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

don't let your emotions govern you...

falling slowly

2010-09-04T08:19:00.000-07:00

It felt as if it was just yesterday when I first met
this very special girl...
Both of us did not expect that we would turn out
to be best friends... At. All.

4 meaningful years passed by...
I got to know her better... sometimes I can read her just so easily that it almost annoys her. (*sorry!)
She always claims that she's ordinary and no one will notice her. That is not true!
Do you know how important you are?
We love you! =)

You saw things differently... You held on to your believes...
and for that, I admire you... really.

<3>

Dearest Vi Vian, Happy Belated Birthday.

Birthday wish...

Group photo!

The senioritas...

mad love.. =)

Monkeys...

ze best fwenz..

grace.

hello there.

2010-08-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

As I flipped through the family album, I realized how time really flies.
The memory of fighting with my cousin at our old house was still so vivid and yet so blur... I have to say that my life is never easy. I had to bear the pain of losing a sister whom didn't even have a chance to say no to fate and live. She wasn't given a choice. Instead, I was miraculously saved and was allowed to live till now. 16 years of life thought me a lot.

Why am I given a chance to live? I really don't know.

Once I told my mother that I want to become a doctor to save the poor in India, China and Africa. Sadly, my mom did not support my idea and she protested. Her reasons were: you have to get married and get a family. You're a girl so you should stay at home and be a good wife. Let your husband work and earn for your family.

Honestly, I think I can do more than that. I want to help those who deserve a better life. I want to make a difference in the others' lives. I want to go around the world telling people that, there's always hope, love and don't give up on life.

But people are getting more and more selfish nowadays. "If it's not your problem, then leave it! Cause' its NOT your problem! Why bother going the extra mile just to help them?! They won't pay you for helping them. All you get is more troubles!" I just can't live with that. How can anyone of us live with that?! Open your eyes. Read the newspapers. There are people suffering out there and here you are, comfortable, happy and blind. Blinded by the wrong perception of life.

What is life?

Some people take years to understand that... To me, life is love. Love is life. You live to love. Unconditional love. To anyone. Whenever. Wherever. Help those who needs help. Don't be so ignorant! Think! I feel so stupid to couple and emo about all those insignificant things when there are people out there dying! Why are you wasting your time on these stupid little things like: he doesn't like me.. I need a new phone... I want this...

Count your blessings.

just a passerby...

2010-08-02T04:51:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm a passerby, always, constantly looking at them from distant.
Weird... isn't it?

I had my hopes high up, and got them all crushed down today.
Sometimes, life really is so bloody unfair.
Why is my life always so rocky?
Why must I hold in my tears and force myself to put a smile on my face?
Why... Why... Why must You take uncle away?
Why must You be so mean to my papa? Why...?
Just to make me a stronger person?
I'm not sure whether I can hold on any longer...
I WANT to be stronger, immune to all heart breaks...

You know.... Secondary school life really is the best time of my life, but somehow little things in life are still all over the place; and I'm still struggling to settle everything down.
I hate all the emotions.
I wish I could erase memories.
I wish I don't have a heart.

I'm just another passerby in your life. I'll forget you and leave.

my family, my heart.

2010-07-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

I will pray everyday that you will recover daddy...
I love you, so you must stay strong alright?

Don't worry about me...
I love you papa... Stay with me forever?

Uncle Stephen... I truly hope you hear my prayers and bless papa?
I miss you so much...='(

My family is my life. My everything. They make my world whole, complete.
I love them...
God, don't take any one of them away from me? please?
If this is another test for me, I give up... I surrender. I'm human... I'm not so strong...
I can't bear the pain... The misery... The emptiness..
I'm afraid and worried whenever any one of my family member falls sick...
I don't mind giving up anything i own to save my family... cause without them, there's no way I can be here.

God, stay with my family...
They need you more than I do.
Show me the way... I will follow...

I surrender.

I'm killing myself!

2010-07-18T06:17:00.000-07:00

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I just can't calm down! There are millions and ga-zillliooooonsssss lil voices screaming at me in my head! I can't close my eyes, shut off and then just doze off... I CAN'T! I JUST CAN'T! I'm so restless...
There's just so many things going on... and I seriously needa think! Sometimes there are things which I know I can accomplish but I just doubt myself... Argh!
St Johns <3, prefects, studies ( July Test!, China VS college...!!!!!!)...! I'm losing my mind hereee...

And now... 6 more minutes to 9.30 pm... ... ...
It feels so horrible to just let go and see someone go...

And and and I'm so confused! =S

I need reassurance! I need someone to tell me that everything will be alright!

I'm going to step up soon as the Chairperson of St Johns, DU Division... and I'll sort of be on my own! To be very honest, I'm VERY SUPER excited BUT, at the same time, I'm scared... yikes!
Then there's prefects installation, YIKES!
GAHHH!!!

I.need.to.rest.

To the lil voices in my head: just shut up will you. Your killing me. Seriously.

Signing off,
grace.

2010-07-12T07:24:00.001-07:00

I'm a happy girl, in a happy wo~rld! ;)

oh, you make me smile...

Loving my life! ;)

2010-07-11T06:34:00.001-07:00

BSMM Installation was good! Really good!

Hot babes and *wink* hot dudes EVERYWHERE! teehee...
Ballroom dancing was the best though! I felt damn sesat so now, I am determined to learn WALTZ! hahahahahaha!
I am truly glad that I have such a wonderful bunch of crazy friends and St John buddies. TheyALWAYS make my life so awesome! Can't imagine life at China without ANY of them... sigh... Jadi, I'll appreciate everyday and everything from now on! and I will blog more often to keep on reminding myself about how good high school life actually is! Now, I actually ENJOY getting stressed up for St Johns! :D

I want to capture and remember every moment that I've spent with all of you forever.

Loved.

2010-06-18T04:28:00.000-07:00

He sees every tear that rolls down your cheek.
He knows what's really going on inside you.
He feels all your hurt and pain.

He fills our heart and soul with His endless love.
He loves us all the same, for who we are.
And He forgives us for He loves us.

A little something that I've learnt and that made my heart whole again.
I may not be a believer of Christ now but I guess I am on my journey to figure out which one is the right path.
And I realized that, He wants us to find that out ourselves. No one can help us in that.
I hope I will find the right path soon.

But for now, I am still Guan Yin's god daughter.
Guan yin is very dear to me as she gave me through my mom's dreams.
I AM the gift from Guan Yin to my family.

I will continue seeking the right path... whether I should believe in Jesus or Buddha.

Don't you just feel so great that your being looked after and guarded all the time.
Makes me feel so safe.
So, so safe.

After CF camp ( ROOTS!), I feel so... fresh and energetic.
Because I know I have chances to seek my way.
Because that is what I am supposed to do.
Because that was the plan for me and only I can find my own way.

with love,
grace.

2010-06-12T07:06:00.000-07:00

What are you thinking?

I really want to know... ...

New moon...
Remember?

Broga Hill..

2010-06-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

I am just so.... human.

2010-06-09T05:53:00.000-07:00

Yes, I am oh-so very human...
Controlled by my emotions and mood swings...
And make harsh decisions...

Always lying to myself...
Always forcing myself...
Always hiding my true feelings...
Always trying to... make it work...

But always ends up failing... 0.0

I think I'll private this blog as I will be posting personal stuff...
And of course, emo stuff...

Can't wait till I leave Msia for China...
or anywhere!
I just wanna leave...

Just a random note: I just realised that I don't understand guys at all after reading "99 facts about guys that girls should know"... x)

Do you really understand why I made that decision?
Do you really know how i truly feel?
I can't trust what you say to me anymore... because you failed to prove to me..
And... you still don't trust me... you even prepared yourself for the presence of 'jacob'...
I'm disappointed... but at the same time... ... I still remember New Moon... 1st experiment... cyst... I'll never forget...

I guess I'll wait till you... succeed... and weigh your priorities again.
But I don't have much time..
Your last chance... is technically still in your hands... But if... you really agree with my final decision, then let it be. I WILL NOT look back.

Dont visit my blog, coz i'll be posting really emo stuff here for some time.

2010-06-08T04:01:00.000-07:00

cheers...

Fell sick.
Stupid disease...
pffft...
palm and feet hurts...

my holidays, poof!
gone.

nice one larh..

I just read Steph Ling's blog and her post reminds me of alot of things...
I guess I wasn't matured enough to handle things.

Studies first.
=)

the story has ended... no more explanations...

2010-06-07T08:44:00.001-07:00

Its done.

Erase all our memories,
and think about our future..

I understand.

But i don't deserve any more of experiments...
Maybe our priorities are just too different.
If I'm not in that list,
then, I'll leave.

It'll be for the best.

No turning back.

No regrets.

No more words.

We... should just return to our normal lives.
Before 18th August 2009,
before what we experienced,
before all those problems,
cyst,
parents,
friends,
prefects...

And now, its finally tht studies pulled us apart.
I guess we managed to come back from our day dreams.
And return to reality.
To face the fact that...
We are not meant for each other.'

Goodbye my friend.
Goodbye...

ps: to those who reads my blog, I wont turn back. I'll listen to your advices, I will not turn back anymore. Not.this.time.

Expectations...

2010-05-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

Mid term exam is just around the corner.
=S

Scared?

Yeah.

Prepared?

Not really.

Gonna start preparing?

DEFINITELY!

。

CAMP IS TODAY!

2010-04-15T21:28:00.000-07:00

yeah man~!

Imma go school in half an hour time.
=)
cya all 3 days ltr.

Camp!

2010-04-12T08:04:00.000-07:00

I've been very very very busy lately.
Not sleeping on time, dozing off in tuitions...
Not paying attention in class, not completing my hw...

=S

After camp, I'll have to catch up.
grr....

ANYWAYS, CAMP IS 4 DAYS AWAY! =D

shoud i?

2010-04-10T05:04:00.000-07:00

Today was really very draining...

After Hari Anugerah Cemerlang, I went straight to Siew Hui's place for mk practice.
Then straight aft tht, Chinese tuition.

die lo.

and now i'm debating whther shud i just visit scout's mk as a friend or not.
=S scared kena...

but me wanna see them install their badges and more cool stuff.. =(

decisions......

OKAY LA! NOT GOING LA!
='(

Camp is 9 days away!

2010-04-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

Excited?

=D

be ready to attend the best camp ever! ;)

xoxo,
grace lim,
AC for YOUR camp.

Recruit exams 2

2010-04-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

=D thts all!

DU Division's recruit exam!

2010-04-03T17:48:00.001-07:00

more pics coming up!

♥

2010-04-02T07:13:00.000-07:00

I switched on the light of my room and dragged myself in.

It was a box on my study table that caught my attention.
I dumped my bag on the floor and decided to take a look at that box.
It was perfectly wrapped in a purple colour wrapping paper with a beautiful shade of pink and blue which shines under the light. A white and semi-transparent ribbon was holding the box in place. I then noticed a blue colour card tied onto the box. Carefully, I removed the card and read it.

It says:

Happy Birthday darling.
Love daddy and mommy.

(in my dad's pretty handwriting. I didn't noe he could write like tht!)

My heart melted. My mom n dad then came into my room just on time to give my hugs n kisses. ^^

I slowly removed the wrapper and found this baby inside:

Canon IXUS 12015!
altho i wanted to find a baby pink/ baby blue camera but,
this baby is 12.1 mega pixels. Altho it looks a lil...........

BUT it produces picture like this:

(thts d pretty ribbon i was trying to decribe!) =D

After few shots, I decided to plug it into my comp n see d photos.
And guess what i found:

What a normal, not-so-photographic picture right.
Look again.
Anything/ ANYONE familiar?
Spot the guy wearing batik clothes? Look closer.

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YES! It is ENCIK ISMAIL!!!
My cousin was testing this baby in that canon shop and ACCIDENTALLY took a picture of ENCIK ISMAIL![my family and i DONT stalk the pentadbirs okay. please.]
And my mom couldn't recognise him. lol.

Hilarious la.

=D

*i'm a happy girl, in a happy world!*
although all the work and pressure is pouring down on me this week but this made my day! =D

That's all for now, I have to get back to work.
St John.
Prefect.
Jamuan.

^^

ciao!

xoxo,
grace.

♥ sorry...

2010-03-23T08:13:00.003-07:00

I promise I'll be back by your side real soon...
I'm so sorry.

♥ sorry...

2010-03-23T08:13:00.001-07:00

I promise I'll be back by your side real soon...
I'm so sorry.

=p

2010-03-20T07:12:00.000-07:00

I tried uploading more pics but then got issues la!
Sorry!

.........................................................................................
2morrow's my sweet 16...
BUT
I'm having high fever and bronchitis again... =(((

damn.

n i might not even go 2 school 2morrow! =(((
zzz.

health.

sneak peak...♥

2010-03-18T08:14:00.001-07:00

half done...♥

I hope you'll read this. ♥

2010-03-18T00:24:00.000-07:00

Today is a very special day for me and well... a vry understanding n special friend of mine.

Whenever I'm ill, he'll be there to lend me a shoulder to cry on.
Whenever I stress out, he'll be there to let me complaint all I want.
Whenever I feel lonely, he'll be there just to accompany me.
Whenever I fall, he'll be there to catch me.

I can't imagine how I'd be like if you weren't there to support me in the worst times of my life...
Family... Cyst... China... Studies....
Thankyou.
**********************************************

He may not be like that to you and you may not see him like how i do.
But please don't judge.

I love him.
Yes I do and I finally have the guts to blog about him like this here.
I know most of you find it weird to see us together, but i think we have the freedom to.
I don't see why we shouldn't give this a chance.
Yes, he broke my heart just a few weeks ago, but everyone makes mistakes right.

7 months...
&
Its his birthday today.

Happy Birthday love.

♥ grace.

BACK!

2010-03-16T05:49:00.000-07:00

Penang was d bomb!
=D lots of how Korean guys...

Imma update more 2morrow!
Penang pt 1
&
Penang pt 2 coming up!

PENANG!

2010-03-13T03:04:00.000-08:00

weeehehehehehe!
I'm going to Penang 2morrow! =D=D=D

after 6 yrs... sigh.

Will b back to blog abt it soon!
there'll b lotsa pichas coz i borrowed me cousin's camera!

xoxoxo,
grace!

ps:i'm back to normal again!

A cycle....

2010-03-03T04:51:00.001-08:00

If you haven't notice, I was on top of d world during sports day if you've read my blog...
& now I'm so depressed, torn and disappointed.

A cycle.

If you guys have been wondering what happened to this emo kid here, well, someone broke her heart into pieces and crushed it over and over again. =S
But no worries, I'll be back to normal soon.
We're mending our scars and hearts... and we'll decide the final decision when we're(I'm) ready.
Haih.... Soph always say: make the right decision. But what IS the right decision?
Is a chance deserved? Is it okay to fall into that place again?
I'm lost.
I'm depressed.
I'm disappointed.
I feel... hollow.

Argh... I hate being emo.

Anyways...... Exams around the corner so i shouldnt be here...
Haven't started serious studying. Yet.

Chemistry
*still breathing*
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Physics...........
*can manage*
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Chinese.....................
*er......... O.O*
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Biology....
*O.O"""*
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=O!
SE-JA-RAH!
*i'm screwed!* faints*

zzz...
grace

Nostalgia...

2010-03-02T08:02:00.000-08:00

Should I believe you again?

Am I willing to fall back into that dream again?

Should I listen to my heart?

Should I trust you?

ily. still.

No. 107 post.

2010-03-01T02:41:00.000-08:00

1st of March 2010.

Just another heartbreak..

I dont want to fall and lose my heart just like this ever again.
So I'll let it shatter and stay like that.
Cause if I let you mend it, I'll just give my heart to you again.

grace

4TH! Can time freeze forever?

2010-02-27T18:15:00.001-08:00

All form 4s we placed a mark on our last yr to march for st john!
Thankyou Grace Ling, great commander.
Thankyou Kels Wong, I z Lim, Mar YY, our greats markers.
Thankyou Daniel D, to prove to me tht winning isnt everything.
Thankyou seniors, who tought us so well n gav us all d support we needed.
Thankyou James Lee for nodding at me b4 formation n gav me my semangat! *coz i was abt to cry aft d messed up hormat ke kanan.

Thankyou.

Lastly, to all our great sports day marchers!
THANKYOU ALL for making *half of* my dream come true!

I LOVE ST JOHNS
du division of course! xP

I am so glad that i joined St John.
This will be one of things tht i will never forget. Issit possible to feel... sad and happy at the same time?
High school years are the best.
Great experiences(down 10s, masuk longkang!), memories(sate!), friends...

All of these made me the way I am now.
Yes, I've changed, we all changed,
but i'm glad tht this is for a better change.

Winning isn't everything.
*but it is still important... heh.*

Sooooo SCOUTS! How does it feel like to be the first?
Clarence Gan, I salute you. xD
Jean, your voice.... woot!
Yee Vonne, damn you're LOUD.

CONGRATS to SCOUTS!

I actually cheered like shit for scouts when they announced d cham.
I used to ask myself... why did you listen to your mom when she asked you to change from Scouts to St John in form one... Well, now I'm glad i did listen to her. I see things from a St John's point of view and managed to capture St John's joy as well as Scout's.
And I'm glad that I saw scouts as our competition, and now, St Johns shall be stronger after trying to compete with such strong oponents. ;)

I will never forget Clarence's smile and tears when he was receiving the medals.
I will never never forget all our smiles when announced that St John got 4th.
I rmb after all the emotions, I just stood back and stare at the wild crowd.
I just felt, glad. Proud.

Grateful that St John/high school in SMDU will be a chapter of my life that shall never be erased. I truly love school life here now.

What will it be like when i leave for China in 1 n a 1/2 yrs time?
i dont wanna leave.

Can time freeze forever?
Cause I love everything I'm having now.

;)

No satisfaction but proud and touched. More updates tomorrow.

2010-02-25T06:36:00.000-08:00

Rock ON!

2010-02-24T05:17:00.000-08:00

Sports day is 2morrow babeh!

Form 4s, this is our last yr to march for st john!
Lets rock it 2morrow!
I'll miss marching with u ppl.
LOVE U PPL!

=)

gonna sleep early today.
My beloved teddy will do a great job in making me fall asleep... =)
Need my voice!

St John... love!

SCC 09. Malaysia group!

ICC 08. Red 3!

grace

oh! i forgot! Just to update u ppl,
most prolly after SPM, i'll b leaving to China on scholarship to Tsing Hua University. which means no college life for me. =(
Sorry william, wont b able to go clubbing with ya!
Sorry soph, viv, wont b able to hang out with u ppl in college.

Sorry, to leave u so fast. dont forget me?
ily.

flower is love. =)

2010-02-19T07:04:00.000-08:00

Credits to uncle Ching On!

Attentioooon!

2010-02-17T07:19:00.001-08:00

i need a blog make over!!!

help!

It hurts to see some1 like u go....just like tht.

2010-01-21T05:57:00.001-08:00

i lost one of my fav uncle on 18/01/10...........

Uncle Stephen...
We all love u...
We hope ur in a better place now...

Now no1's gonna tease me abt buying all my drawings...
No1's gonna pull my chair 4 me...
No1's gonna treat me like I'm a lady from some high class family...
You were the best..
So humble, wise and passionate.
Eventhough u had multi degrees from d top universities in the world,
you didnt boast... nor did u tell me... =(
You always side justice, never showing any signs of defeat or complain when troubles come...

You will forver be in our hearts...
N i will always take all ur advices as my guidance in life.
... we love u.

God bless.

love,
grace n family.

Tradisional Clothes n songs?

2010-01-17T06:34:00.000-08:00

hehehehe I'm so excited to see ppl in tradisional clothes in school 2morrow!

=D

currently addicted to SNSD's Genie...
Kris's Live Like We're Dying...
Rihanna's Russian Roulette..
N Backstreetboys' Helpless When She Smiles...

grace! =D

I always question myself... Where do you belong? Here? or with them...

2010-01-10T04:56:00.000-08:00

2010-01-10T04:55:00.000-08:00

she's slowly slipping away...

I dont wanna lose a best friend like you.

grace

back to school..

2010-01-03T06:26:00.000-08:00

2010!
hopefully it'll be a smooth n better year compared to 2009... =)

haih... bye bye holidays...

='(

hello, smkdu!
jati/belian(?) =S
I just wanna be with my friends la...
zzz...

signing off,
grace

warning: this blog will be dead for a long long time.
I'm sorry!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! BOOM BABEH!

2010-01-02T06:05:00.000-08:00

Happy 2010!
xDDD

New year, new everything! =D
New hairstyle? So imma chop my long hair off!!!
(b4 camp)

do you have a new year resolution?

So glad that 2010 is here... reason? i dunno... heh
I just love new year larh! Too bad couldnt go countdown with friends...
*sophie! we MUST ajak ppl few days b4 countdown this year!*

signing off,
grace.

OH! St John Christmas Party was plain AWESOME LA! x)
The venue is really impressive. Like a mini themepark! ;p

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2009-12-25T01:01:00.000-08:00

Ho! Ho! Ho!

Merry Christmas every1!
I got awesome surprises this yr!

Christmas is really my favourite celebration/season of the year!
Christmas songs, Christmas trees, Food!!!, candy canes, gingerbread man, presents!
=)
I heart Christmas!

*Santa can you hear me? I have been so good this year, all I want is.....

A DSLR... I tried asking fro my mom but she gave me lots of excuses on why i shouldnt get 1... =( eg. i dont have enough time to learn how to use it... zzz...
Candy Canes!
A pair of really pretty ballet flats!
my family to be always as jolly as santa
A nice lil pet... a hamster or maybe a hedgehog...!=D
A stronger immune system/body.
A new phone... =D
Happiness to last in my family...
Love to remain strong within my fasmily...
Bond between my friends and I to really last and stay strong.
our bond to stay on the right track...
to have my parents around me for a long long time...

xoxo
I love you guys!

do enjoy Christmas coz i did! =D=D=D

best wishes,
grace...

2009-12-23T20:21:00.000-08:00

I got my

8AAAAAAAAAs!!!!!!!!!

xoxo,
grace

xoxo

2009-12-22T01:32:00.000-08:00

top (from left to right) : Bao Jia, ME, Ya Yue, Jia Poh, Wan Tching, Teck Lee, Grace Garcia, Pei Heng, Wayne.
bottom (left to right): Fauzi, Tian Lee, Fung Ying{asst leader}, Zhi Wei{leader}, Tommy, Jason.

Awarded Best Group! Go M'sia!!!!

I still cant believe that Bao Jia's form 2, Jia Poh n Jason's form 1, while Teck Lee,Grace G, Fauzi, Tian Lee n Tommy are all form 3s!!!
And hell! Tian Lee, Jason n Tommy hav abs?! N gawd, Tian Lee n Tommy r like so goddamn tall!!!
hahaha...

I didnt really did my best(or anywhere close to it) in camp coz i was sort of... sour? x)
but i just realised wat an awesome group i hav there... =) but thankgod i got along with most of them(the really friendly ones especially Bao Jia)... =D
the guys were gentlemen too! =)

Damn i regret n miss them badly...
See u all next yr?

Seriously, should've been hyper n bubbly in camp...
First day was... O.O urgh...blah...yuck...
Second day was just..O.o
Third was =).
Fourth, =D.

Fifth, =DDD coz i realised my awesome group's potential n =((( coz its last day...

More updates of camp coming up real soon!

signing off,

grace

A different me after camp... i hope.
I dont need to rely on you so much now.

I am stronger.

& I will learn to stand on my own,
& also see things more clearly.

♥

2009-12-15T23:27:00.000-08:00

hey peeps!!!

I will be in camp from 17th - 21st....
So I wont be around till 22nd... =S gonna miss lotsa stuff at home...
=S

OWH WELL....
Here i come SCC 09! xD
Gonna pass all the tests n grab ALL my badges! No more left outs this time!
Imma rock this camp! *quite impossible but i can try rite?*

Oh! and currently I'm addicted to SNSD!!!!!
They're alllll soooooooooooooooooooo pretty! =D
Adores Jessica, Yuri, Yoona and Tiffany! *1 day i wud wanna look like them!... keep on dreaming grace...*

Lotsa LOVE!!!
grace

pichaaasss!

2009-12-11T05:25:00.000-08:00

=) look at my eye bags.... =SSS

<3>

signing off,
grace

2009-12-09T05:26:00.000-08:00

I gained weight.

I'm sunburned...

I'm ugleh!

=( thts wat backpack traveling do to you....

x)
blabbered by
grace

Backpack traveling!

2009-12-08T19:10:00.000-08:00

As few of u noe, i went to s'pore with mom n uncle.
=D backpack traveling... very... tiring n dangerous i guess...
here's wat happened! =D

10.00p.m.-12.00a.m.
Before leaving, we ate at some stall where some huge rat came out from the drain... O.O
*and my tiring, dangerous n very very very frightening journey begins..*
We went to Puduraya for d midnight bus...

1.00am-4.30am
It was supposed to be a 5-hour drive but the bus driver speeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed like crazy...
so we reach s'pore in 3.30 hours!
I tired to sleep but it was practically impossible coz some guy was snoring like no1's business...==

4.15a.m.
Then we're supposed to go to d custom thingie right...
D custom lady screwed me infront of every1 for not filling in the Imigration card correctly... =(
So after fixing up stuff etc etc...
We ran down a level for d bus coz d STUPID driver said he's gonna leave in 25 min...
so we rushed n walked around to find for the bus...
and guess wat?!

HE LEFT WITHOUT US...

and its 4.30am... wast a great way to start a journey rite...
lols... mom was in a panic attack(as usual) coz we didnt quite noe our way... n we were aware tht lots of... workers who didnt look... friendly *or safe*...
so uncle suggested to go for d cab n we followed...
and damn... we wasted 21.80 dolars on tht... *sighs*

5a.m.++
the cab brought us to the Queen street coz we wanna visit some famous Guan Yin temple...
sorry no photos though... wasnt feeling well...

6.00a.m.
After praying, its breakfast time!
There was this clean * exclaims* ordinary kopitiam around the corner so we ate there lor...

hehe... imma famous girl.. *flips hair* xDDD

Bought ramen here. It was yummy! *thankgod for tht*

7.30am
So 3 of us filled our tummies with ramen, dumplings and kuih-muihs.
Since its way too early for my uncle's interview, (he's a chef btw =D) we walked around and chatted with those aunties who were selling really pretty flowers there...

8.00am++
Tired, we lepak-ed at another kopitiam/foodcourt.
And then my headache decided to come back n pay me a visit..=.=
so I slept there... yes i just lay down n sleep... like those beggars you see... or those praticipants for amazing race-asia... * allan wu!!!xD*

*sighs* another very clean place... which we hardly find here...>.<

I slept for... say an hour or so while my uncle walked around d pasar pagi. =)
nice place...
headache's gone!

So, we took our backpacks n off we go--- to beach rd.

taxiiiiii!!!

10.30a.m.
Reached some office where some pro-dao chef interviewed my uncle..
Mom n I waited in d office and my eyelids started to feel heavy n i dozed off... infront of all the workers! xp embarrassing... hehe... *i think i was sleep talking too*
then my uncle woke me up and we left...

11.00a.m.
With a cab, we went to Orchard Road! *where all the glam begins*ahem...
I was feeling much much better so I really managed to enjoy myself. =D

Louis Vuitton! mega huge size! xD weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Ferrero Rocher christmas tree!!! yum...

3 pretty christmas tree made out of really soft n hugable teddy bears!

chritsmas tree deco...

The really cool n fab toilet in some shopping mall where u can find all your branded stuff there... =D

iamsobuyingthisonefinedaywheni'mrich! xD

MIU MIU!

12.30 pm
left Orchard road to China Town!

uncle n.... taxi driver? xD

lunch at Wan Tang Eating House Taipei Seafood!

Issit me or the design is different? I think this is very pretty! xD

1.45p.m
After lunch, we walked around China Town, bought food n biscuits and found a really really big temple... *airconditioned!*

amazing...

me! ps- i gained weight after my Bentong trip... we had 5 breakfasts! xD

the interior designs...

I'm amazed by all the chinese designs... =) i wanna visit China next yr!

I took this in d lift... like seriously... look at the patterns!

crazy rich... (lift)

now... this is a very impressive piece from... China I think... Its a very very old treasure... =)

there were tonnes of artifacts there... I was practically gawking at each of them.. hahaha typical me. =D
really really really impressive...
Oh! i wanna highlight tht 1 of the world's earliest image of buddha was being kept in tht temple too... I was frightened when i stared too close... xD
It was realllly realllllllllly beatifullll....

Anyways, left d temple n continue walking around..

omgomgomg! this uncle is damn pro in playing chinese instruments! see all those instruments he's selling? He noes how to play them all! and he's really good! @.@

4.30p.m
Time to buy bus tickets...
So we had a ride around d place to find 4 d bus station ... =S
the cad ride was really... pricey... =(

After listening to d driver's explaination, we decided to take an express bus from s'pore to Larkin, Johor which only costs RM2.8 per person. Coz if we go from s'pore straight back to KL, it'll be 31.20 dolars per person... Its weird tht ur ride 2 s'pore is RM 31.20(cheap) but from s'pore to KL its 31.20 dolars(super expensive)... =S

The weather tht time was hell... steamin hot! xD
Oh, and thanks to the custom lady... I have a phobia of customs...

xDDD

Customs bla bla bla.... scan... check... pass...

BOOM! we're at Johor... lols.

We were dropped at some big bus station at Larkin... and bought a 5.30 ticket bak to KL...
Since we had time, we went to the loo n ate..
Bad food i tell u... yucks... xD

from the window...

my tea/dinner/supper... oh n guess wat, it was my breakfast today too! & I just realised tht d tag says: best before 10 Dec... =S not very fresh... but oh well.... TOO LATE! xD

Gained fats... n lose some... xD obviously darker... n hell... look at my eye bags n those dark circles around my eyes... This is how I look after 2-day backpack traveling... *imagine months of backpack traveling... n omg... how much u'll spend along the way...x.x* lols...

anyway... no sleep for 1 night again.... zzz...

oh n daddy came 2 fetch us home! xD

thts all for now!

oh oh! and WELCOME BACK Adeline Foo!!!!!!
missed ya sooooooooo much!

thankgoodness u'll be in m'sia for 2months till end of January!=D

and Mallorie Gan Min Li!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WELCOME BACK!
gonna meetya soon! CANT WAIT!

hehehehehe

signing off,

typical... me!

grace

more updates 2morrow!

2009-12-08T07:08:00.000-08:00

backpack travelling is very very tiring...

x.x

grace

SORRY!

2009-12-06T06:57:00.000-08:00

omfg...

I AM SO SORRY.....

i hate myself. everything i do/say sucks...
ihatemyself ihatemyself ihatemyself ihatemyself ihatemyself...

i even hate myself for hating myself...

omfg.

shut the hell up grace.

tsk tsk... just be happy with wat you have grace...

2009-12-06T02:57:00.000-08:00

I want Sophie's height!
I want Cindi's fashion sense!
I want Vivian's writing skills!
I want Vic's legs! xD
I want Yee Vonne's cheerfulness!
I want Tanu's innocence?
I want Jean's sexiness! =P
I want Grace Ling's calmness!
I want Jessica's brains!
I want clear complexion!
I want...

ME WANT EVERYTHING NICE!!!

see wat boredom does to me?

*dot dot dot*

sighs...
grace

Finally!

2009-12-05T04:20:00.000-08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Off to Bentong 2morrow!!!! xDDD

Finally I'm going somewhere!!!

OMG OMG OMFG!!!

My awesomestcousinever - Victor Goh is gonna meet ALLAN WUUUUU!!!!!!!!! next monday!

*drools* heh...

Allan is just so fineeee... *dreams.........*

hehehehehehehehehe!

xoxo,

grace.

ily